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[07 May 2005|12:15pm] |
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OK.
My mom is letting me write my last journal entry.
Yeah, same story, causes viruses.
I MIGHT move back to BC. Dont get my hopes up, right?
My sn is thisisglamour00.
Im on the honor roll for Dow. You can get a C and still make it..Oh well. I was the 119 person to get it. (alphabetically)
Watch Phantom of the Opera. I love it, get the soundtrack too, sing it in the shower.
www.baycityskateboarding.com
www.forever21.com
www.nineeightnine.org
www.runescape.com
www.boysnightout.com
www.mychemicalromance.com
and so on. The rune scape is for when you dont have anything else to do, but its kinda cool I guess. My cousin told me about it.
Well, I love all my friends. I will talk to you if you IM me or whatever. Have a great summer, its coming up!
______*
PS Be grateful for everything and everyone you have. Mothers day is Sunday, love your mother.
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| love is a battlefield. |
[02 Apr 2005|07:40pm] |
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Oh. I didnt go to Bay City today. We wanted Citizen X, though. Good serial killer movie, you should watch it.
I really hate having feelings for people, when I know it wont work out. Its like you try so hard to keep those butterflies from coming, but they have their own mind.
School is soon. I hate Dow. I miss Central so much. All my friends there were awesome, and I guess I shouldve spent more time with them. I thought Id be in Bay City forever.
I miss my daddy.
Dont see Miss Congeniality 2. It wasnt that great, I saw it with Missy and Kristi, so it was better with them.
The pope passed away...Kinda depressing. Im not Catholic at all, but its almost like everyone else I know does. Well, RIP.
I keep having nightmares about something that happened to me. They wont go away..and Ive been sleepwalking. I honestly woke up without knowing and locked my door and my windows. I have no idea why, but I never do that. Scary as hell.
___* I wont always be here, but for however long God wants me to Im here for you.
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[31 Mar 2005|08:33pm] |
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So, Im not doing this to get comments whatsoever. But...Yeah I wont even be updating that much because my mom disapproves of this altogether and considering this computer is in her office and shes constantly working...I dont have much time alone.
Spring Break...Oh dear. I found out I may be moving to Missouri. How exciting... My dad went to Missouri to work- So Ive been forced to babysit until he comes back. Lovely. I havent really been up to much...I hung out with Benny and Greg, be hanging out with Missy and Amanda...Might get Lucas to meet Ben.
Life is very repetitive. Its almost sad, I really dont want to waste the only life that I have away...But it seems like that has to be until I get older and can do stuff on my own.
Oh man. If only you knew me. ___*
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| Until the day I die...Ill spill my heart for you. For you. |
[08 Jan 2005|08:44pm] |
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This is my last entry.
My mother said that I cannot use livejournal anymore due to tall the viruses we get.
email me if you need me.
tabbythecat155@hotmail.com
love all my friends!~~
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| Get back. You dont know me like that. |
[07 Jan 2005|05:24pm] |
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Im at Missy's (aka Banana, M to the Issy..HospAHdiddle...) YEAH.
But Im updating because Derek wants me to.
How depressing. Peace out.
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| break now. burn now. reach out. and take my heart away. |
[01 Jan 2005|09:50pm] |
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I need this vacation to last forever.
The roof of my mouth is bleeding. Probably because I decided I was going to go vegan because they're all punkish now (www.peta2.com) and its cute. I put one of their stickers on the back of my cell and it says "Meat is Murder" It looked like a band sticker cuz its all black with bloody chickens in the background. Neato.
My mother and I should be renting Boondock Saints. Its a really good movie with some hott irish guys. You should check it out.
Timmy called at four in the morning and left a message on my voicemail totally drunk. He sounded like the whitest black boy I know. And thats all I have to say about that.
January 5th Ill be legal. Ow Ow. And... NO :-). (Insert halo here)
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| this is a war, set traps, take up your chores. i want this ship cleaner than a hospital ward. |
[30 Dec 2004|01:48pm] |
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So I was asking myself... "Should I continue with this journal even though not as many people comment anymore?" And my answer is yes. Because I have boredom frequently arise, and it can be therapy if I want it to be.
Today, I do not have to babysit. Ive been babysitting a lot lately. The family I babysit for is just like my family, and they already want me to move in with them when Im 17. Its a lot of work, though. 4 kids is hectic. I really dont know if I will or wont. And they offered me to babysit for them the whole summer, as in move in with them for the summer. Thatd kinda suck, but be cool at the same time. Oh, well. Its a couple seasons away.
I really wanted to go shopping today, but Missy isnt home. The mall is in walking distance. I will probably go by myself or tag my brother along with me if she doesnt call in an hour. Its pretty cold out, though.
I get to go to a party for New Years. Its with the people I babysit for. I always feel like such an adult when Im around them, even at their family Christmas I was in the circle of adults instead of sitting by the fire with the kids that were around my age. I am mature, no doubt, but sometimes I just wish I could whisper in another girls ear just to gossip and feel like a highschooler, or tell a boy he sucks just because I think hes cute. I wont have anyone to kiss when the ball drops, although, I never have yet. When the time comes, I hope its special.
What the hell is with our gay ball anyway? We need something new. One of these years I want to go to Paris where they light up the tower. We usually watch the around the world new years thing instead of ours. Ours sucks balls, haha, its a ball. IDK.
Im done, much love.
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| open your eyes, put some pretty color into the sky. |
[26 Dec 2004|08:09pm] |
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Christmas List:
Money
Cell phone <7088557>
New Year's Resolutions:
Hang out with tons of people
Stay fit, eat less junk food
Do more homework and studying
Laugh more, smile more
Let things go easier
Im sure I will think of more.
Im still single, this is the first Xmas in a while I didnt have a boyfriend, it doesnt bother me as much as it did before Xmas came. My birthday is Jan. 5th and Ill be back in school. Gay. IM NOT GROUNDED ANYMORE. HOORAY.
fjdalfdasloveljfdalfdafdafdas
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| merry christmas |
[25 Dec 2004|12:00pm] |
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ive been really busy lately
im grounded for a while
your christmas cards are coming soon
im taking a break from this journal
ah i like it cold.
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| go get your gun. because god wont show. he sent a poet instead. |
[15 Dec 2004|09:16pm] |
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My dad is in the hospital as I type. He has a stomach issue.
I was supposed to go to Missys today, but I am exhausted. I came home and slept, just woke up a little while ago. Going to bed soon. Still havent gotten results back from the blood they took from me to see why I need so much sleep, they left a big ass bruise, too.
Something rancid smells in our kitchen. I tried sniffing er out, but I was gagging. Ill leave it to the rents.
I still need to send out Christmas cards, I bought some from Target but...I dont like them anymore or something. We will see. My friends mean a lot to me, so yeah. Ill send something.
I yelled at my first hour teacher today, she threatened to send me to the head principal. She picks on me for no aparent reason, and so...My philosophy that most of you know is... "If I dont recieve respect, I will not dish out respect. to anyone. period." Its like the total opposite of the golden rule, but oh well.
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Ahh...Nice pukey color.
I have nothing to say really. I stayed home from school today...Shouldnt be surprising. Ive missed like fifteen days. :-0 Oh well.! I missed my bus yesterday because we went on a field trip and the bus didnt get back until after MY bus left... We got out like a half hour early for respect towards people that were going to a funeral for a Vice Principal at the Jefferson Middle School.
Im still single.
Christmas is approaching. If you havent left your address previously, please feel free to leave it and get some love!
Alright, my Mother needs to go to sleep. <3<3<3
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| For it is true, I have seen the marks of depression on the wrists of boys and girls. |
[07 Dec 2004|07:51pm] |
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Oh dear. It is Tuesday.
Yippy Skippy. Theres these guys in the mall that go "Can I ask you a question" well alllll the time Im like uh no...But I feel for it this time and I bought FOURTY FUCKING DOLLARS worth of POINTLESS NAIL KIT stuff...okay...NO REFUNDS. IT WAS GAY AS HELL. But, the guy had a fake Italian accent, and I felt bad. IDK. They just better not ask me anymore or Ill cry. At least my nails are shiny?
Theres this cute little 7th grader on the bus that looks like a mix between Lindsay Weaver and Katie Sweircz's brothers. Its crazy. He thinks Im beautiful, hah. Now I have a boyfriend for Christmas! Not. Lol, its alright. It doesnt bother me.
Well, Ive got SOME people covered for Xmas. I really hate spending money. I wish I could get some people in Bay City stuff. OH OH Leave your address as a comment so I can send you a Xmas card!!!!!
Well, I gotta take a shower and such. Loveeeeeeee.
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| donteattheyellowsnow. donteattheyellowsnow. donteattheyellowsnow.donteattheyellowsnow. |
[05 Dec 2004|02:11pm] |
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I feel very sick.
Ill admit straight up that I take medication for depression.anxiety.prevention of migranes...
I forgot to take it for the last three days.
Im dying. SO I will update when I feel better, I promise.
<33 always.
PS I was thinking today...How do people without chins fold towels?
UPDATING~!
I babysat last night. I didnt get to sleep until...six oclock in the morning, woke up at eight with the kids. Went back to sleep at two and woke up at home at...7. I have school tomorrow.
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I went to Ponderosa's in Bay City. And, yes. I thought of Erin. Lol. Then, I was in the car down center and thought of Derek Dalzell and Jad. Then I saw an MCI sign and thought of Cassi, lol! I thought of Val when I saw the Christmas lights, and Derek/Kevin when I saw a good place to BMX. I thought of Kate when I saw the Double Tree...ect.
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Not much to really say about my weekend! A lot of other things happened that I cant post, but...its alright. Im sure you understand. <33.
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| distancedistancedistance HELLO my name is DISTANCE and I REALLY DONT CARE if if EVER wake up again |
[02 Dec 2004|07:34pm] |
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Why hello.
I went to the doc's yesterday. We had a snowday yesterday. I got a slip to miss school frequently from my doctor, yesterday. Yesterday was an okay day. Oh, and I went shopping yesterday.
I just woke up from my after school nap, its ohhh seven thirty. I will be back to bed in a couple hours. I wish it were because I was lazy.
I cant get my belly button pierced until Im done with my cold, sooo yeah I dont have it done, yet.
Well, I cant think of anything else... :-D. Lucky you, you dont have to read much. ;-)
fjdkalfjda<3fjklasfda
EDIT;
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| sothoughtless, soloveless, socareless, i could care less. |
[29 Nov 2004|09:06pm] |
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Edit;
Matt and I were a month and some odd days...
BUT, we just didnt have that connection anymore...
And...IDK it was a lot of money for him to come up to Midland all the time I guess. Its alright, I guess, he didnt seem to care too much.
I will be getting my belly button pierced later on this week. Im very scared.
I am seeing the doctor on Wednesday, I believe I have a sleeping disorder. I sleep like way too much, and I never feel rested. Its very stressful.
I took a test today, and one of the questions was "Should Mrs. Vincent have been a vaudville performer?" A. Yes ...and that was the choice. So I, naturally, bubbled in B. because I don't like her teaching methods, and I highly doubt that she could have been. She best not mark points down, I will be m-a-d.
Guess what great movie--
" If he gets up WELL ALL GET UP. ITLL BE ANARCHY!!"
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| Its love, make it hurt. |
[28 Nov 2004|06:12pm] |
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Well. Hey. You really wanna know? Alright.
I babysat ALL WEEKEND. I stayed the night there twice, for some really cute kids. But, it was worth it. Not money wise, but theyre like family to me already.
So, Im sorry that I didnt call some of you to wish you a Happy Turkey Day, reasons vary. I am extremly lazy, also, which I am now starting to admit to. Yeah, hitting those digits wear me out. Its not good. All my friends know I care, hopefully.
Heres some juice on Matt and I so Cassi doesnt get mad, lol. Yeah, were at a month. We havent seen each other since the day him and Timmy came over and we watched Sing Along Songs and Pitch Black in my room with the door open and my sister checking up on us every ten minutes. Lol, its alright. Were not like that anyway.
Im grateful for everything I have. I hope you are, too. It upsets me to see people saying how much they hate their life, when there is always someone doing ten times worse right now. It truly upsets me. So please, please....think about everything you have...not what you dont have. Yeah Im preachin, at least Im not a priest preachin. :)
<33 to the max. Smile like your iming me on aim.
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| takethelight takethelight takemyheart takemyheart takemylife takemylife |
[25 Nov 2004|05:26pm] |
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Well,
Detroit lost the football game.hahah, great game though.
Food on the table, currently in my stomach:
-Turkey
+Ham
+Venisan
+Mashed Potatoes
+Corn
+Rolls
+Broccoli Cheese caserole
+Stuffing
-Sweet potatoes
ummmm
-Peas
And yeah Im sure theres more but OH WELL!
Pie is going to be later.
Football is still on.
Stupid teams are playing.
Im also updating because Cassi told me to.
Timmy is getting me a truck for Xmas.
Im totally excited.
I want to make a snowman like Kate's. I want to look as good as Roxy did all wet from the snow...(see Roxy's lj) lol (non lesbian)
IM FINUTO! Happy Thanksgiving~~
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| Heres to cheap sex and codine...In a hospital bed... |
[22 Nov 2004|05:16pm] |
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Whew! That was one long week of being grounded!
This kid, Brent, died on Friday...In a car crash. He went to my school, and he was on the soccer team. I felt really bad all day, the halls were silent..., extra councelors and the crisis team came to our school. I didnt even know this kid existed. To think that a death would make someone known...is how it works...its just depressing. I was crushed, and I didnt have a place in the whole upset. Then...this girl was driving him...they were secretly going out...She ran a blinking red light and he got hit on his side. He was wearing his seatbelt. People keep saying theyre charging her with manslaughter...Thatd be way to harsh. Like she did it on purpose and had demented planned out thoughts at the age of 16. It was fate. Fate.
Anyway, the rest of the week went by pretty slow. I saw Matt, we almost broke up. Were good now, I went to Central's play. It was alright. The only really good actor was Marcus...I have no idea why, hes one weird kid. I could make fun of this one girl (being nice and not mentioning names) who was fat...and decided to mouth off to me because of Derek...of how fat she is...(she said I had a big head?) BUT, today..Im in a non-christian mood. :)
Well, I dont like writing lonnnnnng borrring livejournal entries...and I AM supposed to be babysitting...So. Leave a comment!!
<3 darkershadeofred <3
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[12 Nov 2004|04:06pm] |
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Edit;
EDIT again; DEREK friggen took off my livejournal background. I just noticed.
As I said, exes are schitzos. (Or about to say if you havent read this entry before.)
Im updating in Estey.
I cannot go to Bay City this weekend.
Math is still stupid.
I almost got to hang out with Miranda.
Exes are just plain schitzos.
I love guys who cry.
I hate girls that wear skirts in winter.
Pictures capture a second in organized time.
I lost track of exactly how long Matt and I have been together.
Im losing track of time existance.
I had to sort dream vs. reality this morning.
The Incredibles is overrated.
I love spelling.
The water is so cold.
<33
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